Friday, December 05, 2008


I can't sleep and it's been a while, so why not another post...

With help from a friend, I got a job at the company that he works for. I've never been happier in my life. I actually enjoy going to work for the first time in 9 years. Most of the people there are my age and the boss is a good guy. There is one thing though...

I know it is only a matter of time before this gets me in trouble. There is a girl. I've talked about her many times in the past. I'll just call her L. She started working with my friend a few years ago. Shortly after starting there, she showed up at at one of the parties. (It is 20 and 30 somethings, someone is always having a party.) I was immediately blown away by her smile and her body, but then she started to talk. She talks geek. She is actually interested when talking about technology and computer stuff, and she knows what she is talking about.

She was always with some douchebag that treated her like garbage, and while we enjoyed talking, nothing really came of it. Fast forward a few years... She just got married. To a guy that she works with none the less. When I heard about who the guy was, I was stunned. I just don't get it. HIM!?! ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME?!? Now we get to the torture part...

I am now forced to work with both of them. I still find L irresistible. This is going to sound cheesy but, there are times when she takes my breath away. I will come around a corner, she'll be right there, and just WOW. I'll stop by here cube to talk to her about something, and she'll start playing with her long brown hair. I can barley think when she does stuff like that let alone carry on a conversation.

I also find myself checking her out. Not intentionally at all. Besides her smile, her most striking feature is her ass. And the fact that in the past she has told me that she only wears thongs. She will wear these business pants that just showcase her perfect booty. It's like some spectacular disaster, I just can't help myself from looking. It is only a matter of time until someone in the office sees me checking her out. I just hope that the someone isn't her husband.

I can't go to her and say, "L could you please wear less attractive pants and granny panties and cut your sexy long brown hair?"

I even think that I may have stumbled onto a pic of her praying at night...


I hope this wasn't a mistake.

As of Tuesday, I'm now in more debt than I've ever been in my life. I just took out an auto loan for $10k. I also used up almost every penny that I had for the down payment, tax, title, etc. All of the experts are saying that the next twelve months are going to be unbelievably bad economically. I'm just praying that I don't loose my job.

I've never owned a new car in my life. That has been both a good and bad experience. The good being that I've learned how to replace almost everything by my self. The bad being that I haven't enjoyed my car(s) in 8 years. When you drive a busted up, rusted out car that is a color that you HATE and is beaten by almost everything on the road, it sucks. I'm sad to say but I've only been on a couple dates in those 8 years. Each time, I was horribly embarrassed by my car.

What does a girl think when you pull up in a shitbox? Also, what girl notices a guy driving a shitbox? None.

Ever since they first came out 5 years ago, I've dreamed of owning a sexy dark blue Mazda 6. I've been casually watching the classifieds to see if one showed up with all of the options that I wanted. I think in the back of my mind, I was limiting myself to finding the perfect one just so as not to really screw myself and put myself into even more debt while I still owed on my credit card. I've had my credit card paid off for a good 4 months now and I've stumbled onto what seems to be the deal of the century...

A dark blue 2006 3.0L V6 Mazda 6 with a body colored grille, black fabric interior, LED spoiler, and 5 spoke wheels. The real kicker is that it's being sold locally by someone only 10 miles from my apt and it only has 4,100 miles on it!!! It is practically brand spanking new. A '09 Mazda 6 would have cost me $29k. I'm getting one for half that. I just couldn't pass it up.

I can't believe that I'm thinking this... The winter in WI has started out with a bang. It's just the beginning of December and we have a good foot of snow on the ground and the temperatures have plummeted into the single digits. I'm actually thinking of parking a car that I've dreamed of owning for the past 5 years, for the entire winter. Am I nuts? I would hate myself if it got all f'd up this winter. Both with all of the dings/chips that come with salt/sand, but also the possibility of some idiot smashing into me on an icy day.

I guess that I've waited this long for my dream car, what's a few more months?

Now If i could just find my dream girl, it would make these cold/dark winter months less depressing. That search has been going on for a good 10 years....